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Science on skincare tips/ How to remove whiteheads with my ‘swear-it-works-for-me’ method

I love Love LOVE reading skin care articles from any experts using science as explanation. You know you google, and start opening links with titles that interest you. However, some are really just crap and copying theories that even 3 years old kid will know. *roll eyes*

So, I came across an article that (I think) is scripted by real beauty experts and it explained to me why some creams works and some don’t, BASED ON SCIENCE. *STANDING OVATION*

So here goes… (By the way, I don’t want to be going back and looking at history links sourcing for the actual words. One is too troublesome, two means I didn’t learn/understand anything right).

One of the reasons why some creams doesn’t work is because of its’ molecules. So when the day/night cream you’re using has molecules that are sized too big to penetrate inside the deeper part from the outer skin cells, it’s impossible for the magic to work as it will just stay on the surface of your skin. Poof, mindblown. No matter how high-end or pricey the product is, it will be useless.

“Die, chemistry is my worse subject at school!” Don’t worry, I will simplify it and chemistry is my worse subject back in school days fyi. If I can understand, so can you.

-Just imagine.. When you shoot a basketball into loop with a smaller circumference, it will either bounce off or stuck at the top because the ball can’t get through. It’s the same theory. Basketball is molecule, and the loop is the gap of the cells in between.-

Okay, my brain is linking all the facts in my head right now. My Eureka! moment. (Disclaimer: All of these are based on my thinking, none are proven right but I think it make sense tho. Everything on earth are supposed to make sense, isn’t it..?)

So, what’s the big fuss if my cream happen to have molecules that are too big? 

#1. Clogged pores (and leading to pimple)

Since some of the creams have a bigger molecules (unfortunately), I think it will clog the pores and cause whiteheads. Like I said in my previous post, your pores need to ‘breathe’. So when the cream can’t penetrate into your skin, it will block the pores because they can’t do their job. And that’s when whiteheads will form, because the sebum is producing and all the dead skin cells plus dirt can’t be removed. Worst is when you don’t exfoliate regularly, everything just stuck there and (literally) waiting for pimple to erupt. Sounds so scary right… gosh.

#2. Moolah flying away… :(

Of course, you will be wasting money (like how I wasted mine). All that creams that doesn’t work regardless of whatever reasons, you can’t force happiness to happen. Is either you curse yourself, burn the idiotic product, or you pass to the lucky ones. No way you will continue using, and let your face rot its way out. Well, I do heard of people saying your skin will turn better after getting use to the product. Bull shit lah. It is impossible, this is just self-deceiving. Doesn’t work means doesn’t work. If you have a severe seafood allergy, will you insist on eating them to risk your life by “making things work”?

What are the ways (I think) that we can suspect this molecules disaster is happening?

#1. Your skin has that heavy feeling after application, and not going away

I got a feeling that this type of cream will be a thicker texture, because too much elements linking together to form one molecule. So, it will be oily and heavy making your skin crying for help. The feeling will get worse after a while, because your skin will keep producing oil to the surface.

Well, some creams do get absorb slower than others, but it’s a red alert if you skin starting to feel congested even after one application.

#2. No matter how many times you use, the product just can’t absorb well. 

Maybe you have tried massaging the product into your skin, or putting a 5-cent coin size little by little to avoid the bad after feeling. Bloody hell, all kinds of way and nothing works *bang wall*. If the cream isn’t helping you and giving your problems, better to bid farewell mon cheri.

#3. Breakouts

This is the worst scenario. And honestly, I think this will only happen to people living in self-denial. Definitely they have seen white bumps are forming all over their face, and the pores are obviously becoming bigger. They still use it, and thinking things will fall into place in the end. And then all erupted to big ugly pimples, and they will be crying and complaining why is this happening them. Face it people, I’ve accepted the fact that BB cushion isn’t my shit, and you can too.


Any ways to prevent this disaster from happening? 

“When Buddha closes a door, He opens a window.” *Enlightenment light* Nothing in this world has a dead end.. unless you are dead and that’s.. roughly the end. ANYWAYS, luckily there are people who always see the cup as half full, they find solutions for all their problems. Of course, prevention is key. Why do you even want to wait for shits to come to you, and then it’s too late?

#1. Exfoliate regularly

Another reason for you to rub those dirt and dead skin away. Frankly speaking, I used to love exfoliation so much that I’ve overdone it and caused my skin to be extremely sensitive. So, regularly doesn’t mean you do it every minute of your life. If you prefer daily exfoliation, use gel type or mild scrub. My skin is oily, so I prefer to do it with daily mild scrub or every 3-4 days for heavy exfoliation.

#1 Quick tip: If you have acne-prone skin, don’t use harsh bead type of exfoliators. High chance it will hurt your skin, and worsen your acne condition. Use chemical based will be a safer option.

#2 Quick tip: Exfoliation is best to do at night before going to bed. Ultimately you are scrubbing away the most top layer of your skin, and may accidentally remove some good cells along the way. So, avoid sunlight or any harsh lighting and yes, make up too, (fyi, even man-made light bulb has UV rays) to give your skin a good rest and prep for skin renewal process.

#3 Quick tip: For daily exfoliation, just rub for 2-3 minutes will do. Because you’ve been diligently removing all those dirt, so the accumulation will be lesser. A little goes a long way. On the other hand, for weekly ones, take a longer time to massage as you need more effort to remove all those accumulation of dirt and dead skin.

#2. Change it, obviously

This is a no brainer. You just have to get up and look around for that one moisturizer that work best for your skin. Now I would rather put in more effort and study every moisturizer before I applying on my face, than having to waste money buying them and in the end it didn’t work. Beauty can’t afford to be lazy.

I feel the only way to find out if it is suitable, is always to give it a try. So, these are some ways (that I came out with) to help saving some money. 

#1. Buy second-hand of that product you want to try 

This is my biggest saving secret! This may sounds a bit wrong or disgusting, however what works for you may not work for others. So, some girls that can’t continue using the product will want to sell it off to recoup part of their losses. And coincidentally, if you’re considering to try out the same brand, you can try searching on those online platform (e.g Carousell) to try your luck. Trust me, most of these are only used once or twice and seller are willing to sell it off half of it’s original price.

I know it may not work out for you either. However, it will hurt alot lesser as you didn’t buy it with the full price in the first place. Seller got rid of it, and you don’t need to burn a hole in your pocket. Whoo, win win situation! 

BUT, comes with a few conditions before you regret it.

  • Ensure that it is NOT packed in a way that you need to dig out the cream with your fingers (tub packaging). This is the easiest way to spread bacteria into your skincare. If the seller is severely acne-prone, good luck if you want to risk it. Sometimes, you just can’t get the best of both worlds.
  • Always remember to disinfect the ‘mouth’ of the pump well before using, or the opening of where the cream comes out. You never know what it has touched before.
  • Make sure the remaining quantity inside the bottle justify the selling price.

#2. Find for samples (if possible)

A down side for this method is that not all skincare companies willing to splurge extra cost on free samples for marketing. Normally are those korean brands that willing to let you try their samples, other brands well…very unlikely. However, using sample is a good way to make you decide if it is suitable for your face before making another mistake.

#3. Selling your product online

On my #1 point, I’m saying you should buy second-handed skincare product if you want to give it a try. However, you can be the seller too! *clap clap*

Just like what I’ve explained earlier, what suit others may not be suitable for you. So, if this product is causing you trouble, doesn’t mean it is born as a mistake. Let others have the chance to try at a cheaper price too, the world will become a happy place. Well, it is pointless for you to keep it and collect dust. All skincare products have an expiry date. Therefore why not just sell it, instead of throwing away your money into the sea.


My #swear-it-works-on-me method to remove whiteheads.

Shit, this product is causing my face to be clogged with impurities and whiteheads are everything. How now, Brown cow…~

Have no fear! Yesterday, I’ve encountered this problem and was hunting high and low to look for solution. This is because I don’t want to ruin the momentum when my face is recovering on a stable pace now. And ta-da, I found out that that tea tree oil works for me.

After some researching and googling, I realized that I can clear those sebum inside my clogged pores just by adding a few drops of tea tree oil in my routine. I don’t want to explain the benefits of tea tree oil, because you can find it all over the internet.

This is how I do it… 

  1. I went to wash my face, and exfoliate with a good few minutes of massage. Focusing on areas that are more bumpy, rubbing away as much dead skin as possible and wash it off. Be careful not to over-exfoliate.
  2. With my toner, I dripped a few drops of tea tree oil and wipe all over my face ensuring I don’t miss out any spot.
  3. I pat my face and let it dry first before applying anything else. Making sure that the oil has fully penetrated to let it work it’s magic.
  4. Lastly I skip my moisturizer, and used only milk essence for the day to lighten the burden on my face and let it concentrate on skin cell renewal.

Today my skin is so much smoother and brighter. And, the moisturizer is absorbing faster into my face, making it smoother and softer. So yup, this is my method and I’ve decided to include tea tree oil in my daily skincare routine. It really works!

On the last note, I think everyone should roughly know what kind of products work for them. After all these while spending money for facial and skincare, each one of us will definitely know the type of cream or product that really works for them.

Some prefer to stick to one brand to play safe. Others, like to explore and go on a learning journey (like me). The path is risky, and maybe more of disappointment than celebration. But come on, this is the fun part in the world of beauty isn’t it?





I think I’m starting to turn my wordpress into a beauty space.. Anyways, like I said in the previous post, I spend huge amount of money on skin care because of my troubled skin.

Along the path to curing my ugly face, I have gained knowledge and trust myself enough to only do things that make sense to me. This is Part 2, and here goes… :)

#4. Three-in-one or All-in-one, is it really better?

This question is debatable. But based on my personal opinion, I don’t like this idea. Maybe is because of my character, products that self-defined themselves into a miracle cream just make me have doubts. I don’t buy it.

Well, it is possible for them to discover an exotic plant or ingredient, study in the lab and come out with a unique product. However, I always believe that they will exaggerate a little on the description to convince buyers to try their new creation. I mean, ultimately is still business right?

Unless you’re the founder of SK-II, who came across the miracle ingredient-Pitera by chance, if not it is just hype for having so many skincare products raving in the market all at once.

My thoery: Well, I would rather my skincare product to be focusing on one main concern of mine than being distracted with a few benefits that may not even work on full capacity. Yes, it may sound good that one product covers everything you need. To me, less is more.

All-in-one product has one main disadvantage, which is that the quantity of each ingredients supplied to produce that one small tub of cream is greatly reduced. If not, they will suffer a loss in production. And, it is impossible to squeeze so many nutrients inside one 50ml glass container without having to adjust the volume. Which means the more benefits each tub has, the lesser essence of each ingredient is contained inside and the texture will be heavier. It may be fine for you, but you must know that lesser quantity means slower result. Maybe because I go for sure win, then 50-50 of uncertainties. I feel safer when I know the things I am putting on my face, are going to do it’s magic of what I really need (not want).

My personal experience: Actually, most of the products in the market now are focusing on multiple-in-one. Which I don’t understand why, maybe it is cost effective for higher margin?

So no doubt, I have tried a few types of cream that give me many benefits last time. Thinking that it will save me money, time and trouble to study brands. Well, I can’t say it didn’t help me AT ALL but I was wondering if my recurring whiteheads is caused by this range of product.

Okay, you may think that your face need all that nutrients to have that perfect complexion. However, the reason of having pores on your skin is because that they need to ‘breathe’. Yes, that’s why human sweat and why some of us have bigger looking pores is because they need to widen up to ‘breathe’.

(Quick tip: I do feel that sweating helps to get clearer complexion as the sweat can push the dirt deep inside your pores out on the surface. And as you wash your face after that, you can clear the dirt at the same time. There’s no better way to clear dirt in this most natural way. )

When you face is being ‘covered’ with facial cream that the texture are too heavy because of the multiple benefits, the dirt in your pores can’t get out. Sebum keep producing and dirt is stuck inside while the opening is covered by your ‘wonderful all-in-one’ cream. Ta-da, you will see small white bump the next day you wake up.

Too complicated? In simple term, I was the cause of whiteheads on my face so I blame myself.

Tips: Like the Crystal Moist series I am using now, it focus on hydration which all types of skin need especially for me. *The main cause of bad complexion is because of dehydration. Remember this.* Get something lightweight so your skin won’t feel burden, and something that can absorb well is important too. The after-feeling of applying skincare products, should be light and smooth. Not heavy and oily.

Try to get a separate Day and Night cream if you can. Day cream, should be light and able to moisture your skin throughout the day regardless of where you are. Night cream, should be more intensive so as to assist your skin when they are doing self-repairing and cell renewal while you’re sleeping. I feel human body is just so smart and everything become so logical when you study and link the facts together. Wow. *Eyes sparkling with envy*

Verdict: Like I have mentioned, less is more. But of course, always depend on one preference.

Stunned, my 4th point is quite wordy. I feel that taking care of your skin is not rocket science, as long as you have the determination to understand how it works and find ways that work best for you.

Well, love hate relationship I should say. Will update more once I have the time. :)



Is it really true on those beauty skincare tips…? Part 1

I have tried numerous skincare products, even before my D-day came for what they so called “Quarter-life Acne Crisis”.  Have you ever experienced when you’re reading a beauty skincare article telling what you should do and shouldn’t, and you went “nah, it’s bullshit”. Ya, for me every time.

I like to google everything (Buddha bless Google), so my brain has the ability to link the facts and mind-blowing myself during “Eureka!” moments. It only happen to skincare theories, so it doesn’t apply to my studies at all. Also, I think the internet need more people to be saying the actual truth, instead of copy pasting to create a false hype.

(Sidenote: I always always (Always) believe that each person has a forte in something, no one is useless. Just need time to realize it, and then expertise in that area. Good luck!)

Of course, a lot came from personal experiences after testing and trusting the internet too much. And yup, all hell break loose. I will try to make sense as much as possible, I promise. So, here goes… :)

#1. Face mist for hydration

The thing with face mist, or face spray, is that we spray on our face (or whole body) to give us the instant hydration cooling effect that will only last a minute? Or when your face is parched, thinking that giving a mist will restore it’s hydration.

Well, it does cool us down on a humid weather and also help to ‘set’ make up too (if you don’t know yet). It is widely known method, and I’m pretty sure even the inventor of face mist didn’t see this coming too. A sudden strike in jackpot for extra bonus.

HOWEVER, giving your face an instant hydration with a mist is not always a good idea. It does depend on where you use it tho, and definitely not at places that have extremely cold and dry condition. Trust me, using the mist in flight is a big no-no.

My thoery: Okay, the thing with water on your face right, is that it does moisture the external part of your skin for a second then evaporation will start. So, when the water is evaporating, the water molecules somehow carry the natural oil from your skin and disappear together. It leave your skin drier in the end, the exact opposite of what you want. In flight, the air pressure is dry and the interior is freezing cold which will be enough to make your skin crying for water. So, misting it not only doesn’t help at all, but will make everything worse.

My personal experience: I have experienced it during my flying days, and it is the stupidest move ever. My face became extremely dry, even wrinkle are forming. And being a smart alec, I used the mist for a quick fix. Not only my face felt worst, even my colleagues are asking if I have allergic reaction at that time. *Roll eyes* Soon, I realized that the face mist is the culprit and my face become a little better after stopping it.

Tips: When to know your face is shouting for hydration? (Okay I read this in an article, not that I’ve been professionally trained.) Is when your skin look shiny on the outside but the texture is rough and extremely dry after cleansing or masking. You may think:’hey, this one doesn’t mean dewy skin ah?’ Answer is, hell no, dewy is glowing and soft skin. Not tight and dry, don’t be delusional darling.

Verdict: Face mist is always a good economical way to set make up, letting it look natural. But, not always a good way to spray anywhere and anyhow you like. *Use with caution* (Drama background music) 

#2. Cleansing wipes better than oil

I used to be a big fan of cleansing wipes, because it is just so convenient and you don’t have to transfer your makeup remover into smaller bottle just to pass immigration checkpoint. Not only that it is troublesome, and you have to worry that (high chance) it may burst because of air pressure during flight transit and making a mess quietly in your luggage (one of my biggest pet peeves, urgh).

Plus, it does remove those concealer, eyeliner and even mascara (not all, but most you know). You can’t expect things to be 100% perfect, so yeah.. By the way, I need around 3-4 sheets to get everything out, so not cost-friendly for me. The whole pack only lasted me the maximum 1.5 months. And, you need to be extremely gentle when applying on your delicate skin.

My theory: My guess is that all the rubbing and chemical on the cotton sheets are slowly ‘eating’ up my skin with the friction each time I’m using it. It’s like mild exfoliation, and a little goes a long way. So, the friction with the sheet’s texture stripped off my surface skin cells. Also, I think that they use a special formulated chemical to remove those tough makeup in order to replace the old traditional oily way. At that time, I was using it almost everyday so it means that my skin does not have enough time to regenerate new cells for replacement. *Sigh* Therefore, I thinl that  cleansing sheet isn’t suitable for everyone, as it can be too strong for people with sensitive skin.

My personal experience: After using for a while, I realized that the wipes are starting to sting my skin a little and leaving my skin dry after using it. I know I shouldn’t use on my eye makeup (oil is better), but I was young and lazy so I didn’t care. I feel that my eyes are losing collagen from all the accidental pulling, causing my perfect double eyelids to become multiple folds (like those old hollywood stars). Only then, I know I need to stop rubbing the sheets on my face… (Sidenote: Finally I understand why beauty experts say that eyes are the most delicate area, and need to be extremely gentle. Because once you loosen the collagen, you need a lot of effort to tighten it back. It took me at least 3-4 years of daily eye serum application to get rid of those multiple folds entirely. #AForEffort )

Tips: I learnt from my beautician that cleansing milk is the best remover for makeup and impurities. Expensive doesn’t always mean that it is good. Like me, Loreal Paris Gentle cleansing milk works like magic, and only cost me SGD 7. In addition, I use Biore Cleansing gel as well, to make sure every tiny bits of make up is removed.

Verdict: Sheets are good, depending on how you use them. Really, don’t use if you are a rough person. Or, an OCD like me, thinking that you need a good amount of strength to rub it for everything to come off. Personally, I feel that the shelf-life is short too unless you’re getting the one with a tight cap but it will be additional cost. Nah, not for me tho.

It may be harmless to use for that 2-3 days of travelling, but definitely need to reconsider if you want to use it for long term or entirely replacing the cleansing oil method.

Quick tip (1): If you carry a tube, try to expel all the air out and tightly close the cap before packing into your bag. If in bottles, pack it in a ziplock bag and make sure to release the air before sealing. To be extra kiasu, pack your clothes and etc into separate ziplock bags to ensure that little asshole don’t wreak havoc. Yes now, you can travel in peace.

Quick tip (2): Always buy shampoo and soap (maybe even facial wash if you’re not that particular) from the destination country itself. Why? Because suppliers or manufacturers will always supply different type of their products (or even may adjust the ingredients of the same product you have) to specific countries to cater to the climate to improve their efficiency. Which means, what works for you in Singapore doesn’t mean it work for you elsewhere. Plus, no harm spending like less than $10 and share among your friends/family right,when it can help you to get more space while packing, lessen the weight and worry-free during transit. #WorthIt.

#3 Self Extraction, right or wrong?

Many beauty-experts (or self-proclaimed to be), are emphasising that we should never do extraction ourselves at home. Honestly, I do agree..but to a certain level.

People, let’s face it. Facial is darn expensive, and I am sick of salons pushing me to buy a package from them always. They know how to make use of my weak point, which is a perfect complexion. *Roll eyes* But who have that much of money to keep getting a package? And worse, they still try to convince you to upgrade your current one WHILE doing facial. Seriously…(another of my biggest pet peeves)

My theory: So, I’m referring to those who genuinely advising not to do self-extraction out of goodwill, maybe they’re worried that we will over-do and worsen our condition. Which is true, some may go a little too far and not only it didn’t clear up the acne, but may cause bacteria infection which will likely leave scars and cyst or whatever. If not, I see no problem doing it myself, since everywhere is selling extraction tool for a reason. Unless you’re unlucky and encountered a really tough acne problem, if not some harmless extraction do benefit in the long run. 

My personal experience: Well, obviously I’m not gonna listen and still went ahead to do what I think is right. Which is, I do my own extraction. *Thunder and lightning* Okay, it’s really not as bad as you think. Yes, I know facial does a better job to clear those whiteheads and acne pus professionally but it come with experiences. Also, if you can collate all of the standard facial routine, I’m pretty sure you can do it yourself bit by bit. I mean, those experts started with zero knowledge too right..? Well, for myself, mostly I will target whiteheads and my T-zone because they are the easiest to remove. All I did was to extract after washing my face. I don’t go all the way to steam and ‘open’ up my pores and blah blah blah.. Nope, and trust me, things may be easier than you think. Alright, I find this task stress-less because I do alot of studying and reading up online for my understanding of how things work before application. That’s why, I am confident enough to go ahead without constraint.

I must say, in fact I did a pretty good job. My T-zone cleared up and looking ‘pore-less’, and my whiteheads did reduce abit. So, now i am proudly to say I don’t need to depend on others for my skin. Good job.

Tips: So, there’s a few things to take note of course. First, the best time to do extraction is on wet skin. Why? Because sebum are almost impossible to remove when your skin is dry and rough, as our pores are not soften yet. It’s kind of logical, for example whenever you clean your clothes, you need water right? Your face work along that line. So when your skin softened with water, you will realize that whiteheads are easier to extract.

Second, always remember to use a dettol (or any antiseptic wipe) to clean your tool before working on another pimple/whitehead/area. To play safe you know, in case you transfer bacteria and make your skin worse.

Third, always work your way upwards when extracting your T-zone area. You will see those yucky sebum coming off, and feeling a sense of achievement. I’m not sure of the whole face, but T-zone pores face upwards so working your way up will make your pain endurance all worth it.

Fourth, never trust any masks that say it help you remove dirt deep inside your pores because it is im-pos-si-ble. Well, it just doesn’t make any sense to me. A physical sebum is stuck inside your pore, and how is it possible for an innocent piece of mask sheet do that miracle? Maybe clay mask does help in some ways, but I will never believe masking can help to clean up the pores entirely without having to push out the dirt yourself. Over my dead body. Do you see facial salon using sheets only during extraction…?

Verdict: EXPERIENCES. Enough said. You have to know what you’re doing. And if you’re unsure, please don’t try your luck. It’s your face, so unless you don’t mind to be stuck at home for days to heal your mistake. If not, leave it to a pro please.

That’s all for now. Hope it helps to solve some of the problems you’re facing now.

To be continued…




My acne problem – first wrong move

My previous complexion isn’t the most perfect like Song Hye Kyo, but I can say  that it was better than average. I used maximum effort to get my skin to be as clear as possible. And, I dreamt of having that glow, dewy look without having to put on make up.

At that time, my house was full of face masks that I can afford to use it daily for at least a few months. And, I was hardworking enough to DIY my own facial package at home. I bought machine (yes, those that are used by legit salon), created my own regime for my face and bear with the excruciating pain of doing the extraction myself.

Ta-daa~ Yes, my efforts paid off. My skin was at least up to my expectation (after doing all these shit). I was contented. But, on a side note, the daily mask application has dried my outer skin alot but I ignored this problem thinking that it’s fine.

HOWEVER, my doom day is nearing and hit on me like a bad storm.

Everyone was raving about the BB cushion from brand “L”. Well, so did I. It creates the effect I was dreaming about, and honestly awesome coverage. I used it, and loving it. It was my favourite foundation at that time. My face was dewy, glowing and perfect. Even though it was a fake perfect complexion, but I don’t care. I feel that it is worth it.

Just less than 5 times of application, I have noticed small bumps forming all over my face. Maybe it was because my skin type, I do get those irritating bumps everytime so I kind of take it too easily and underestimate it’s power. But after using the cushion, the small bumps are obvious, and certainly different that those past ones.

By the way, my skin type was “self-made” combination.

Why do I call it “self-made”?

Because I’ve been masking too much, and the chemical extracts on the sheets have completely stripped off my natural oil on my face and unable to generate enough sebum to balance my skin’s moisture. My face is extremely dry on the outside, and oily at the inside. All the skincare experts that have treated my skin, were shocked about how dry my face was. And, I feel that they are genuinely advising me to do intensive hydration before it’s too late. Not trying to sell me package or something like that.

Apart from the drying, my skin became super sensitive too. Come to think of it, the mask’s liquid was all acidic chemical which I guessed was the reason why it happened. Whatever skincare product I put on my face, it stings my skin and sometimes even cause redness. It was so bad, that my eyes teared a few times. No matter how gentle that product (or it claimed to be) is, nothing works at all. Slowly, even the make up foundation and sunblock I put on my face starting to sting too, especially BB cushion. I know it was ridiculous that I was still insisting on using the foundation. I googled if this is normal, and sadly it is not…

Also, I’ve hive reaction several times on my face which give me the red alert that something is wrong. That’s how dry and sensitive my skin was. Alot worse than you can ever imagine.

Anyways, as I was a stewardess, so make up is a big must for me. Not that I want to look pretty, or I keep going out and have to use makeup to cover up my flaws. I was tight with time, and can’t be running around to look for miracle cure for my problematic skin.

And ya, it was too late.

All those tiny bumps got “angry”, and one by one, they exploded and form big ugly acne. At that time, I was having self-denial that the BB cushion suits my skin alot.. So yeah, it’s entirely my fault. I did try non-comedogenic products, but none of them works.

I think what made my my face so bad is that I am purely suay (aka unlucky). Everything just happened to me at one go, no breaks in between.

  1. The BB cushion obviously doesn’t suit my skin type, and it clogged my whole face with impurities.
  2. I didn’t cleanse and remove the heavy makeup thorough enough, which I thought I did and the dirt keep on accumulating deep inside my pores.
  3. I was having hormone change (my dermatologist told me).
  4. My diet ( I’m not too sure about this part, because I did google and it says actually diet doesn’t play a big part on acne-prone skin).

That’s about it, and I think it is bad enough.

So, I got very big, painful acne all over my skin and I couldn’t continue my previous skincare regime. I know I need to look for a new one.

I did look for dermatologist, which introduced me Accutane. A pill that dry up the sebum on your skin, so it help shrinking stubborn acne faster for a clearer complexion.

And that’s the only pro for eating that pill. The rest is cons.

  • You can’t get pregnant during and at least after 6 months stopping the pill. Can you imagine how strong it is…?
  • Your skin get so dry that no matter how much moisturizer or drinking water will not ease the discomfort. And I drink at least 3 litres of plain water on daily basis fyi.
  • I felt nausea after starting the pill, not sure if this is one of the side effects.

So obviously, I didn’t feel safe to eat the innocent-looking pill. I felt uneasy already when I have to sign the consent form before my doctor can prescribe the pill to me. It just doesn’t feel right, maybe is because this is the first time I sign this kind of document which overwhelmed me. Many thoughts came upon my mind, what if I can’t get pregnant anymore after finishing the course…what if my child development is affected because of this pill? What if, this pill doesn’t work and instead I’m bringing harm to my body.. and so on.

Disclaimer: I wasn’t pregnant during that time, and I was in pink of health.

My airline job is already bad enough for my body, and now adding the pill means another burden and risk. Therefore, I decided that I will finish this supply (about a month) and stop completely because the pills are very expensive fyi. Thankfully, I was still having my training during my pill consumption period so I was able to stop before flying starts. I would rather my face to learn to recover on its own than to let it rely on the pill and get “lazy”. I just think our body is smart, and once it has a substitute, it won’t work so hard anymore.

I’m not kidding, my acne have bothered me the whole 2 years until now, May 2017.

I went for a full skincare regime(1), to just 3 steps(2).

(1) Remove makeup, cleansing, tone, SK-II treatment essence, serum, moisturizer, eye cream, mask

(2) Remove makeup (seldom), cleansing, moisturizer, acne spot treatment

I lost my confidence, and hate to leave house so much. I just want to stay home and hide my face.

After much effort, my face did get alittle better once i stop using all kind of products all at once. Maybe my skin was too sensitive and fragile at that time, that’s why whatever I put on my skin just make it worse no matter how careful I was like looking at label, the ingredients etc.

One fine day, my bloody itchy hands and mind tell me to put on the black peeling mask to extract all the blackheads and dead skin. Yes, the really tight one that all the girls are suffering with the painful plucking they have to go through. I don’t know why I have the confident that things will be alright. And BOOM, my face acted up again. The peeling agitated my skin with too much pressure, the external became dry and oil sebum overdrive. Argh…

Like this one. 

Up till now, I am still pissed with myself for making that decision. The money that I’ve spent, skincare products that I wasted and staying at home to slowly recover everything, just burst into flames. Stupidest decision ever… i want to slap myself. TWICE.

Everything back to square one, and I need to restart my engine again. I am an impatient person, and I feel so miserable having to slowly treat my acne again. Who got time for this right?! But it was because my itchy hand, so I just have to suck it up.

Reboot. I have trialed and error everything, careful of what I put on my face. And keep my areas that touches my face clean, and germ free.

First anti-acne kit I bought.

  • La-Roche Posay gel cleanser for oily and sensitive skin
  • Effaclar DUO (+)

I couldn’t get used to the after-feeling from the gel cleanser at first. I felt a layer stuck on my face, and tough to wash it off. I think is because I like the physical cleansed feeling, which means is not good as it would mean that too much of my natural oil has been washed off. When I use toner to prep my face, I can see dirt on the cotton pad after wiping my face.

The moisturizer isn’t really that bad but I think it didn’t work up to my expectation and spending SGD40 plus for it. My face is still breaking out, even though it has been alot stable compared to when shit has just started. It took a while, to see some noticeable improvements for me. But my face still feel alittle dry, and not being protected enough.

Skincare that worsen my face or didn’t help at all:

  • Clean and Clear foam cleanser
  • Sebamed Anti-bacterial cleansing foam
  • Biore Double Scrub Bright
  • Loreal Paris Hydrafresh Genius series (sleep mask and genius water)
  • Thefacestop White Seed Exfoliating Foam Cleanser
  • Thefacestop Clean Face series

I have wasted alot of money to cure my skin. However, along the way, I gain knowledge just by googling and figuring things out. Now, I know more about my skin as compared to the past, when I was just impulsive and stubborn.

I’ve tried a powder wash Kanebo Suisai Powder wash from Japan, it was pretty good at first but soon I realised it has exfoliated my face too much after a while. So, it is not gentle enough for me, that why I stop.

After much adjustment with my skincare routine, now my skin is the oily type and not combination anymore.

I suppose my skin has always been oily from the start. Because I remember when puberty just hit me, I will keep washing my face to keep the oil away. Only when I start my crazy mask application, my skin became combination.

Current skin care products

Maybe it was fate, that I came upon this brand called: Crystal Moist.

I don’t want to exaggerate and rave about this brand, but I think this is decent with a good price. I use their balancing toner, milk essence and moisturizing gel for my day care. The price for each product is around SGD 11-20, and is worth trying out for their skin hydration care. Cheap and good.

The hydration effect is up to my expectation, and my face isn’t having any major breakouts after using it for a month. It calms my skin (surprisingly), and I don’t feel the heavyweight that most of the other skincare products have after putting on my face. Maybe it will not be the best product in the world, but this brand works for me. Thankfully.

Even tho the Loreal Paris genius water isn’t working for me, but I am using their White Perfect Clinical Anti-Spot Derm White Essence, and Overnight Treatment Cream for my night care. And it’s not bad at all. I bought it because I want to lighten my acne scars/marks. Plus, it always state that I can get my money back if it is not effective. hehe, so why not? I think I have wasted enough money…

Anything that doesn’t irritate my skin and cause breakout, is considered good enough. Now, I am grateful that my face don’t go crazy again.

My acne spot treatment is Oxy-10 spot cream, another cheap and good item. One bad thing about this spot cream is that it may burn your skin causing a dark mark when you apply too much on your acne spot, because this has happened to me. So, little by little at a time will be the best.

I still put on makeup, but with more cautious thanks to all the acne scars and marks. Concealer I am using Oxy Cover acne pimple, but it is a BIG MUST that it has to be used after apply my pimple cream. If not, I will definitely see another bump again the next day.

Oh ya, I am using the Bright Ion + CC cream from Crystal moist too. I am super surprised that this brand creates such a suitable CC cream for my face. I know the mistake i have made last time, but this is the only time I didn’t regret for trying out CC cream. I’m not too sure if is the ion + substance that is working for me or is the ingredients in their creation complement the nutrient that I need. But, this CC cream is light and hydrating. Even for me, the extreme oily skin type person, don’t feel discomfort at all after applying it.

I remember when my face was in a mess, I feel my skin dry out faster than average person. I have tried Loreal Paris True Match foundation (24H Hydration), it is good but I still feel my face clog after a while.

For cleanser, I have read an article once suggesting acne-prone sufferers to try double cleansing. The most important point, is the cleanser has to be extremely gentle. And after suggested by Mr. Google, I have learnt the most gentle ones are milk cleanser from Loreal. 

I know most people use it as makeup remover. But for me, I created a wash routine for myself. Daytime I will just use milk cleanser and massage for a while to make sure impurities and sebum to melt away. Night time, I will use the milk cleanser and La-Roche Posay gel cleanser for my double cleansing, then follow my skincare routine.

To speed up my recovery, I am taking the 21st Century Anti Acne supplement. I don’t know if it is helping my face, the result is unknown but I just want to finish my first bottle no matter what.

I did try to reduce my intake of processed sugar and diary products. Actually, I think that those are unhealthy generally, not just for people with acne problem. So reducing it does help, and taking water do keep your body in a good shape.

Maybe my face isn’t suitable for expensive treatments but at least I’m on the right track now. I just want to jot my bad experience somewhere so that incase anything happen, I know where I can read up and get back my motivation.

I have realised that expensive skincare products do not mean that it is good as well. As long as the product help you improve your skin, price doesn’t matter. Cheap doesn’t mean it is bad.

Just incase, the products that I have bad reviews with don’t mean that it is bad on its own. It may do good for you, but is just unsuitable for me unfortunately. And those good ones, are just my thoughts after trying it because my face is very hard to take care with.








I’m glad I still have this little space…

It has been so long since I decided to switch on my old laptop. A year, or two maybe? I’m not too sure, but I do miss the typing of my keyboard.

I’m surprised after all these while, I haven’t lost my touch yet, of moving my fingers with eyes at the screen. When I remember, last time I will take out my textbook and practice typing because I feel that my speed is too slow. Hardworking, isn’t it.. for nothing. My sisters thinking I have too much time in my hands. Literally. Get it…?

Sigh… ( I did let out a sigh when I was typing this four alphabets out.)

Life, makes me so exhausted. Something happened at home, make me see another side of life. All my past ranting about work, food, society aren’t that important anymore. I’ve experienced something I never thought I would. Nothing is more important that what I can cherish now. And, I hope time can stop clicking for me, just once. To let me figure out my perfect next step, and make everything last forever.

I used to anticipate the future, unknowing what will happen next sometime excites me. But not now. Fearing to know what will fate bring me in my future, thinking about the past and laughing how stupid I was to allow people to step over me.

Letting people make used of me, belittling me, thinking insults as jokes, forgiving people too easily, devaluation of myself, friends over family. Bull fucking shits.

I see enlightenment of many things, many that I didn’t bother to look in closely last time. Thinking, nah they meant the best for me… or not? I’m not too sure now.

I feel that society has twisted so many meanings that we thought it is normal to be the bad guys. It made me start to wonder, what is the true meaning and what is the grey zone.. Is it right, who does that, why they allow them to do this and etc.

I just feel so twisted and unfortunate to be living in this era, really. People feel proud that older generation couldn’t enjoy the advanced technology, or couldn’t take cool photos to upload in social medias. Couldn’t enjoy the new definition of high life, or finding ways to attract viewers to become Miss/Mr Popularity. Finding all kinds of absurd ways to fight a snippet in the cyber space.

I beg to differ.

People now are going crazy. They don’t see a problem with the current World .

Up till now, I can’t find the right word to describe my thought. It is stuck in my throat, like a bad phlegm. Can’t cough it out.

Honestly, I envy how things used to were. People enjoying the days they are living, doing things that are meaningful. And obviously, way healthier. I don’t see people falling sick, or dying young with terminal illnesses. I don’t see them slapping people in the public for nothing. I don’t see explosions anywhere out of a sudden. I don’t see people falling into depression and kill themselves.

Life was so peaceful back then.

Now, everything is going wrong. Yet, no one sees a problem with it. They are like patients in asylum, living in their own world.

No one is thinking that all those weird weathers, increase in natural disasters, extincting animal species, crime rates, man-made disasters are hints of a tragedy getting ready to happen. People hitting tabloid with the wrong reasons, and travelers embarrassing themselves in foreign land. And, they care more about the likes on social media, making money and escaping from reality. Everything is wrong.

Ugly is becoming the new beauty. Sadly.

It has disgusted me from inside out. Selfish is an understatement.

Friends and colleagues aren’t acting like the meaning in Oxford dictionary, families all eyes on their phones screen at home. Am I too narrow-minded?

I don’t think so.. Which makes me want to get out this superficial bubble. I don’t want all these to bother me, or staining me with their negativity. I hold firmly to what is really most important for me, and I thank time for letting me see the light.

My only wish now, is not for World Peace. I’m not participating in pageant. But is, for my family to stick with each other, healthy and blissful. Simple wish that need big efforts to come true…