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You have #GMH

I am going to talk about someone that have helped me to see another side of life.

He was not someone popular or someone who was influential.

He, was a house-keeper in my workplace.

I have met him only roughly 2 months, from the day I started working in my current job. At first, I did not talk to him much, just only greeting terms. To me, he was quite old in age and  somehow makes worry about him when handling heavy tasks.

Everyday, he would come without fail to help keep the cleanliness of the office. He would do his usual routine, starting with washing the plates, clear rubbish bins to vacuum the carpeted floor.

He was a polite man. When we helped to pour away the rubbish into his big plastic bag, he would go’ thank you thank you’. Or, he would insist doing it himself. I remembered once, I was still new to the office and didn’t know where to put my used spoon.

He  would smile to me and asked:’ you want to clear this ah, just put inside here lor’ in a very cheerful and casual tone.

Another encounter with him was that I have accidentally stained my table with green tea, and asked to borrow his cloth. He was smiling and nodded his head in a friendly way.

Sadly to say, after these two encounters, I did not start any conversation with him anymore.

Only once, I was just back from my lunch. Then, I heard commotion of my colleagues saying:’ you are bleeding alot uncle. You need to go see doctor!’

I quickly rushed to see what have happened, then saw him pressing tissues on his neck. The tissue was almost fully stained with blood. His shirts, hands, neck were all stained with blood too. My Superior took him to see doctor, even though he kept on refusing the offer. Have to say, I was stunned with what I have saw.

Ever since, I started to be quite worried about his health.

The next day, he did not report for work. I was relieved, cause he needed that rest.

After that, he has reported for work again. Only then, he was like weaker than I first saw him. When he helped to clear up my area, I attempted to start conversation with him and asked him how was his neck.

‘Much better already. The doctor said that my skin is too thin, that’s why will bleed that time. But okay already, no more bleeding.’ While talking, he kept on pointing his neck, to show my that it was no longer bleeding. To assure me, I think.

Then he continued:’ you know ah, i really like this place alot. I have worked here for nine years. Really really like this place alot, that I don’t want to leave at all. This place is like my second home. The people here are very nice.’ You can see from his face, that he really love working at my workplace alot.  I always eat medicine, till my voice no more. Next week, need to see doctor again, to see whether need to continue medication or not’

Oh, I forgot to mention. He need alot of effort to talk, think he has some problems with his throat. His hearing wasn’t well too.

Then I went back doing my stuffs, he came back and said:’ Miss ah, please don’t tell others of what i have told you okay? shhh..’ he put his finger on his lips. Cute uncle.

I nodded my head, and did the same too. Finger on my lips.

Ever since that incident, I become very worried of him with all the carrying of stuffs. He was obviously weaker than before. Once, I went to pantry to refill my water. I saw him sitting on the chair, hand touching his stomach, look like in alot of pain. I went over to ask how he was, he kept on re-assuring me he was alright and just had medicine. And, he kept on urging me not to tell my Superior.

I felt really bad when i recalled this incident. I should have helped to ask permission for him to go home early to rest. After that, he beared with the pain and continued to his tasks. When he bent down to pick up the bins, he have to sit down in order to reach it. Feeling really bad enough, I helped to clear bins for him.

The uncle was absent from work ever since that day, if I did not miss anything. One day, an aunty came in to replace his work.

I thought he have quitted his job to rest and enjoy his golden years. However, i was wrong.

He have passed away.

I was so shocked. I have regretted so much for not talking to him more. Regretted so much for not asking him to rest and helped him with the rest of the tasks.

I hate this feelings of life with regrets. When it is too late, nothing can be done. It have made me realized to cherish of the people around you. You will never be able to predict anything next. When anything bad really come true, you will start saying,’ i should have… i should have….’

Why give fate a chance to let you regret, right…?

Deeply in my heart, i salute this uncle for his passion to work and thank him for telling me simple happiness.

Rest in peace uncle. Hope you are enjoying on place you are at now, thank you for everything you have done.

Thank you :)

With Grateful and Thank you,

Freakfeelings